Most of our lives are spent constantly preparing for something.
But between you and I, I think most of the time, we are never quite there.
In fact getting to a state of feeling perfectly ready could prove to be elusive. Sure, we can wait...and wait...until one day we feel all is just perfect, just right. But isn’t it a terrible heartache to constantly be "preparing" and never fully immersing in everything that life has to offer right now?
Our minds tell us too frequently that we need more time, more money, more preparation. And while I do agree that there are skill sets to be developed, strengths to be harbored, rejuvenation and revitalization to go through, I have also recently realized that sometimes we just need to confront the task and let our hearts bite the bullet. Because the truth is sometimes all of us are hiding behind the “not being ready” level. Because it is a comfortable and safe zone to be in. There we can claim we are doing something, while simultaneously being protected from both failing and succeeding (I remember what they say–––people’s greatest fear is not "in failing", but it’s actually "in succeeding").
A year or so ago, I could have officially left my company and followed my heart. I told myself let me be stable first, let me study first, let me save up first. Well more than a year has passed since then. And now the economy has tanked, I haven’t nearly taken all the classes I still need to take, and it’s not like I have that much savings to show either. Quite frankly, nothing much has changed really. But see this time, I decided to finally choose to dive in and quit. Arguably, you can say that I needed that much time to get mentally and emotionally prepared. Others might deem it foolish. But in my heart I also know that I just merely needed to look inside of me and have faith. Faith in God…in myself.
Once I believed that, I just needed to buckle up tight for the ride.
Because either way, I know I have chosen the more interesting and thrilling path.
